I say I'm okay. I'm always happy. But honestly, it's fake.
I thought I was okay. I thought I was happy. I've always wanted more. Even when I denied it.
I do hurt. I do cry. Because big girls are just small inside.
So, I'm here sitting. Hitting walls. Hating myself.
And when I fight back. It doesn't go well. I don't want to hurt. I don't want to cry.
This pain I feel inside. Please go away.